Monday, April 15, 2013

To BN or not to BN

Today I was driving back to Subang from Mont Kiara. I could use Sprint, NKVE or Federal. And because I only had rm4 in my wallet and rm5 in my touch n go, I made a turn to Bangsar, waited in the jam and then used Federal to get back home. No tolls, just lots of car.

Do people do that too to avoid just a small toll, like me, of rm1.50? If we know a way and we have the time do we use a longer toll-free route to go home? And if it is the beginning of the month where we have just gotten our salary do we use the highways that leads us to our destination faster even if there are more than 1 toll?

But what about poor people? Like me today, and like so many out there? How do they travel? Do they take a bus and save every single 5 cent coins they have? These toll dilemma may not be too much of a concern in comparison to perhaps maintaining the car or the calculation of the cost of toll versus petrol consumption in whole.

Then do we still say that the rm100 or the rm500 shouldn't be enough to buy our votes? What if the rm100 or rm500 really helped them? What if they bought a bag of rice or a pair of new shoes for the kid to go to school? Do we only say that it isn't enough to buy our vote because we have at least rm50 in our wallets even as right now you are reading this? Or because we haven't been that poor before, because we've been to other better countries and we wonder why isn't Malaysia progressing like them?

And do we only focus on what could change for us, as individuals? So what about the promise of the abolishment for PTPTN loans if the opposition wins? And we are voting in light of that promise, for those who already graduate, are we not voting for our very own purpose?

So people say to me when I ask these questions, that I cannot be focusing on just what is right now. I cannot focus on the Wang Bantuan that government gave, and I cannot be considering job opportunities that all the government officials now have, I cannot be looking at the extra shipping ports that was built years ago so that we have more import and export opportunities. No, instead, they tell me to focus on the better countries around us who started off just like us, to think of the briberies of this corrupted government and the lousy education system and that the opposition can change all of these.

But, I thought that Singapore, Hong Kong, Taiwan, South Korea and the likes, they all have poor people too. People who lives in dodgy apartments, and share very small rooms with their families, people who lives under the bridge and keep themselves warm by burning newspaper etc at night. Land with plenty of high rise buildings and also high suicidal rate.

What are we striving to achieve? Are we hoping that the opposition will take over and somehow improve the country and increase our money value so that travelling can be more enjoyable? Are we telling people that the chubby lady with a bad hair cut is spending too much of our money on her jewelry and bags? We are ready, for what? For our country to wake up one day and realize that our education system is bullshit and we start teaching our children about the world, the fall of Berlin Wall, the truth about our past prime ministers, who the fuck is Benjamin Franklin and maybe a couple of stories about the Nazis and Ku Klux Klan? Instead of just a few chapters about Malacca and almost the entire book about our country's religion? Do we vote because we have hope that our future generation will have brighter opportunities, and to the extreme - the country will evolve into an ever competing nation that strives only for the best, like Singapore, a country that has no place for secondary achievers? Or we are simply satisfied with a change, any change, just to see how we hold up. What is our vision? Each individual, do we understand what changes can mean to an entire country? Does the term 1 Malaysia anger us? 

Do we have a vision? 

Or are we just voting because our friends told us to do so, and they tell us to do so because their friends told them to do so?

The question i'm asking is do we the voters know that this is a bicameral parliament? Are you just about to google what is a bicameral parliament right now? I am asking, if we really understand how the country works and if each of us have a vision before we cast our votes.

I'm asking because I don't know. I don't know so many things. Maybe it is just me, but are there people outside who don't know just as much things too but gets a chance to vote too? And if they all know so many things, are the resources reliable? If you are voting for BN, do you have confident that they will lead Malaysia to our seemingly fading away 2020 vision? If you are voting for PR, do you have valid resources that prompted you to do so?

Look, these are the common reasons I hear why people should vote for BN or PR.

a. (BN) "Because they have been good what, Mahathir was good and maybe this one fucked up a bit but still okay what."
b. (PR) "Walao eh, you chinese leh, you don't vote PR meh?"
c. (BN) "Be grateful la, we are going to win anyway what."
d. (PR) "We need a change!" What change? "I don't know la, changes in everything la diu."
e. (BN) "We have a vision, plus we gave out lots of money."
f. (PR) "Because we know BN might win and we want the numbers to be closer." Seems legit.

Now I'm not saying I am pro BN or pro PR. And I know that what I've typed here may anger some people out there. But I just want us all to know, that we need to really understand more things before simply ticking the ballot.

Please, don't vote just because your friend said so. Vote with a conscious. Ultimately, to BN or not to BN. 

Saturday, April 6, 2013

irene can sing

Sometimes I play my guitar and start singing. Then I would record it and usually laugh at myself. But I guess not everybody shares my humour.

Mum usually starts vacumming.



Friday, April 5, 2013

anticipating

To want to be love is one of the worst feeling in the world. Constantly anticipating that miraculous day that might never arrive.

Isn't it sad to be like the Cast Away actor? Waiting and hoping. But the Christians seem to be a big fan of the two words "wait" and "hope". Probably cause we don't see the mighty one's last seen time on whatsapp and the double tick indicating acknowledgement but haha-no-not-gonna-reply.

I have an interview tomorrow. If they ask me what are my 3 biggest strengths and weeknesses I'll be damned. Irene's biggest flaw is her crazy imagination. Sometimes its like a curse that has an ability to make me cry. Other times it puts a smile on my face.

The whole journey back from work was smooth. I still managed to catch up with myself along the way. Most people don't do that, I wonder why they'd be looking at me funny when they see me talking to myself.

If I start writing down things that comes across my mind will aliens that secretely tracks our blog entries sense high potential in me and pick me to be their galaxy creative manager? I'm cool with the associate or creative leader position too, just don't call me an executive. Come on. What a joke.

A ghost could be humping you right now and you don't even know it.